the target

i kept it all to myself
i have no choice
who can i even trust
all i am is a shadow
i cant be anything else
no matter who i tell
they only use it against me
mock me for who i am
and send me back to darkness
all anyone does is get angry at me
say i should never have existed
and put another blade to my throat
all i can do is keep my mouth shut
and listen to it over and over
nobody tries to know who i am
just follow the public eyes
and deny any of my words
to say that i cant resist
they're not wrong about it
even i believe it
so why am i here?