Never been in-Love

Afraid to fall asleep
Incase  I die alone
Never knowing
The true meaning  
To being  in -love
27  28 and no never
In -love .
Was all an illusion
Emotions and feelings
On strings I made come alive
An Imagination I forced
To paint and show
So that others will agree


 A connection  
you loose
All  control
Your power
And give in to this roaring  fire
Love
Or is the passion and fireworks
A hot heated lust
If we fuck
Is it love



To have eyes looking
In yours
they smile
Cause they can see their beating heart
their souls  become moulded inside you
One breath
One intwined life


They say this love never ends
Theres no brokenness no pain
These people also like to say
They knew from the very start
They are meant to be one
sounds like Romeo  and Juliet
The most romantic suicide



A love so rare it can never be replaced
Whats in love ?
Will it complete me ?
Make me whole?
Will my insecurities fade?
Will i notice the  beauty in the world more
All cause of  being in-love ?
Is  it not just a chemical reaction
Where your body
Releases serotonin
Feels good feel fucking amazing
like dark chocolate


For all
I see and feel
Is this grey sadness
The world collapsing
My baby girl
The one light in my life
My joy
My peace
My darling


Yet  my heart  selfishly
still aches
For a mans touch
my lips
Are yearning to thirst off another
To drink up there flesh
Bathe in their bare skin
my hands want to
Claim someones mind
And melt in to there body
I want to call
Them my own

And when the sun rises
I gaze up and they are still there
That I never feel it was a faze
Im a new painting they see
Every day falling deep inside

I wont feel unsettled
Wondering if
I can txt and call
No feeling stupid
And needy
Or burdening them
He will answer
By knocking on my door



I dream of a day
Where I love you
Is no longer just a cliche word
That I will truly manifest
those words


I lay on this cold pillow
Wishing my eyes
Will give in to sleep
To live
One day
Whisper
" Im in love with you"
Where do we go from here