All or some

I give you everything
Still I sit here with only a something
That I'm not sure is anything
But I will hold it dearly
Hoping
My life is in a gray space
Between never
And forever
I am nearly
Alive
But also nearly dead
I hope that I am not in a race
To the grave
I would like to race to you instead
So for now I will give you my all
While I only get some...