Ambivalence

 
I can't remember when I abjured love  
at first it was unconcious  
love wasn't much in evidence;  
and then, after failed attempts to find it  
the decision became, well, concious  
 
lust, love's fucked-up bedmate  
was next up for the chop;
lust gets a person going  
going with others  
others you wouldn't look at sideways  
in the abscence of lust  
 
and for that very reason  
I abjured lust as well;  
but lust's a toughie to eradicate  
(though I have a program of control)  
see, lust's in with dumb biology  
and rears its stupid head  
even without inspiration  
and just because it can  
 
but lust is growing weaker  
with time, and as biology loses strength  
so I'm thankful (mostly);  
though I've heard - lust will reinvigorate  
if love comes charging in...