I just don't wanna be

( a gen-x sonnet)  
   
I just don’t wanna be here any more  
I’m tired of the days just dragging on  
life spent just thinking how I’ll close the door  
just every thought’s another minute gone  
   
it’s all I have to make it through the day  
so when the hell did I become his thing  
who simply wants to get the fuck away  
convinced that I’ve got nothing left to bring  
   
I’ve got no po'ms or songs inside of me  
it’s plain I’ve let this show run way too long  
with every look there’s nothing left to see  
but seeing every way I don’t belong  
   
so one day soon I’ll simply disappear  
when blackness even blackens out my fear