A friend that was never there

You can figure out that your life  will end.
But all in the beginning is what you needed  was just a friend

To hug,
To talk,
To do what you could not do alone.
To hold on to when life is pulling you  down.  if that came what would  you do

  would you find a strange attachment
To point  you could not see life without them till you are alone  sent with no future?

Would you be on the side of the road moving step by step
 There's  a line you follow that never  ends you step and step  but you feel like you will  never  have that friend agian

Your World  shatters  and your left with the blood from the scars upon your wrist
To a point where  you about to say I'm done with this shit

But there is that one split second  where you want  death so bad.
you think you think really hard
 and there's  another  moment  to where you say I want to live,
and not end it all.
Dont  want others to see you fall,
and make them think it's there fault
 so you cut your wrist  and bleed out the pain  but  all you hear is the muffled  sounds  of your breath and the wet blood ,and the rain that falls from your eyes.
 you open  your eyes. you see your world  become a blur

Next  thing you know you close your eyes  and you open  them and your alive
You curse, but are still thank full that you survived.

You count the scars  and picture a life with out fucking  up.
And realized  that is not life but just a fairytale dream that your  mind made up.

You wish and wish you  could just be the best  that everyone likes  and wants to be around.
You want all the scars the echos  that haunt you to fade  but all that's left  is the memories  of that  harmful  sounds

You may find peace  but a monster is a step away  so don't walk  in a line  run a little  because  you don't know when it will  be the end .
you will never know  if you will ever find a friend agian.