Freakin Lazy A$$

Oh, my goodness, JJ. . .I so wish that you hadn't gone there. . .This doesn't even begin to describe you. . .I'd like to say that you just sank my heart but then again it was your wit & humor [in something only you can pen] merely uplifted; so I guess this piece wasn't to bad;). . .~xo, Devlin.

Well Dev, although I did insert a level of humor to poke fun at myself, it is still a serious poem with much truth in it. If my brother read this he would say, "yup, that's you Joe". But that's what introspective poems are all about, if you can't be honest with yourself in your self poems, you're being selfish... thank you for commenting, always appreciate your thoughts! jj

....at least you can admit it! Hey JJ, 53 is the new 40, didn't you know?! ;) That's that good ripe age!
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"Wealth and opulence would roll off my flesh like sweat in a steam room
Or perhaps the tiny feet of scorpions racing for my toes at high noon" <-- I just love how you designed these lines. xo

My dear Rain, Perhaps I will win the Powerball drawing and be a billionaire for a day. But I will be far too generous to keep it to myself. My family and friends will be there to share it with me. Of course, only in my dreams...
I will be 53 on March 25th. When I turned 40, I was having a terrible day, working in my classroom at school, miserable about getting old. So the other teachers aides put up a bunch of "Happy 50th Birthday" signs and it made me laugh to think it could be worse, I might actually be 50 in 10 years... well, here I am about to splash down at 53. The years go by too fast. 40 would be a welcome age to me now!
jj

"Wealth and opulence would roll off my flesh like sweat in a steam room"
~purely genius..

your easy honesty- on top of stellar JJ humor & wit- placed you in my solid heart-space from the gate, misters!
great to read you again sweetie ;) ..brave write, respect by curtsy ;)
much luvins,
~d/T

Thank you d/T! You are a sweetheart who always brings warmth from yours to mine with you kind words! Warm [[hugs]] 2U!!!
JJ

This was just pure genius JJ. Loved each and every line. Felt so much thought the whole thing. I'm a pretty lazy person in all honesty definitely not the way to be. Wining the lottery would be very nice right now indeed. Thank you for sharing no matter how blunt or truthful this may be your still a great person to me (:

Thank you Red. Greatness is in the eye of the beholder and you only get to behold the parts of me in my poetry. Although I do write a lot of self-deprecating poems, they are still only words on a page. The real world physical me is more a mess than I let people see. Having said that, reading my introspective poems exposes more of who I am than I usually put on for show... jj

 Self Portrait - 04/01/1983
http://deepundergroundpoetry.com/poems/54369-self-portrait/    
    
  Forgive Not Forget - 04/03/1983
http://deepundergroundpoetry.com/poems/28861-forgive-not-forget/    
    
  Two Faced - 06/06/1983
http://deepundergroundpoetry.com/poems/33598-3-seeds-of-hatred-raise-your-spirit/    
    
  Constant & Changing - 11/27/1983
http://deepundergroundpoetry.com/poems/30966-constant-changing/    
    
  Walls And Bridges - 04/04/1985
http://deepundergroundpoetry.com/poems/27476-walls-and-bridges/    
    
  The Man I Am No One Else Knows - 03/06/1987
http://deepundergroundpoetry.com/poems/52990-the-man-i-am-no-one-else-knows/    
    
  Stock Room Blues - 06/30/1987
http://deepundergroundpoetry.com/poems/56784-stock-room-blues/    
    
  Blind To The Me Others See - 07/04/1987
http://deepundergroundpoetry.com/poems/34599-blind-to-the-me-others-see/    
    
  Struggle Against Success - 05/13/1989
http://deepundergroundpoetry.com/poems/27447-struggle-against-success/    
    
  But Does God Trust in US? - 05/30/1989
http://deepundergroundpoetry.com/poems/31098-but-does-god-trust-in-us/    
    
  Every Eden Has It's Apples - 07/26/1989
http://deepundergroundpoetry.com/poems/26541-every-eden-has-its-apples/    
    
  See Through Inner Eyes - 10/27/1989
http://deepundergroundpoetry.com/poems/26570-see-through-inner-eyes/    
    
  Within Me - Beyond Me - 07/18/2003    
http://deepundergroundpoetry.com/poems/27362-within-me---beyond-me/    
    
  I Am - 03/04/2004
http://deepundergroundpoetry.com/poems/28343-i-am/    
    
  Life Is An Ocean - 10/11/2004
http://deepundergroundpoetry.com/poems/27363-life-is-an-ocean/    
    
  Under The Bridge - 03/30/2005
http://deepundergroundpoetry.com/poems/27475-under-the-bridge/    
    
  Uncertain to Me - 04/01/2009
http://deepundergroundpoetry.com/poems/34596-uncertain-to-me/    
    
  When I'm Sixty-Five - Social Insecurity - 06/13/2011
http://deepundergroundpoetry.com/poems/26275-when-im-sixty-five---social-insecurity/    
    
  Holes In A Story - 11/01/2011
http://deepundergroundpoetry.com/poems/32201-holes-in-a-story/    
    
  a Self Portrait of Holes In A Story - 12/06/2011    
http://deepundergroundpoetry.com/poems/68669-a-self-portrait-of-holes-in-a-story/    
    
  Learning to Fly - 04/23/2012
http://deepundergroundpoetry.com/poems/49373-learning-to-fly/    
    
  Unfade Away - 06/09/2012
http://deepundergroundpoetry.com/poems/55591-unfade-away/    
    
 Nobody Becomes An Artist - 22nd July 2012    
http://deepundergroundpoetry.com/poems/61358-nobody-becomes-an-artist/  
    
 Dripping Into Death - 26 July 2012    
http://deepundergroundpoetry.com/poems/61911-dripping-into-death/  
    
  Completion by Separation - 10/14/2012    
http://deepundergroundpoetry.com/poems/72257-completion-by-separation---competition/    
    
  A Hero's Secret - 11/30/2012    
http://deepundergroundpoetry.com/poems/79274-a-heros-secret/    
    
  A New Beginning - 12/20/2012    
http://deepundergroundpoetry.com/poems/82858-a-new-beginning/    
    
  Nobody Knows the Trouble I've Sown - 4 July 2013    
 http://deepundergroundpoetry.com/poems/116039-nobody-knows-the-trouble-ive-sown/  
    
 Deathright - 5 August 2013    
http://deepundergroundpoetry.com/poems/120298-deathright/  
    
 Jealousy is such a bitch - 26 September 2013    
http://deepundergroundpoetry.com/poems/128761-jealousy-is-such-a-bitch/  
    
 Nothing Is Real - 30 July 2014    
http://deepundergroundpoetry.com/poems/171747-nothing-is-real/  
    
 Masturbating Reminds Me I am - 24 October 2014    
http://deepundergroundpoetry.com/poems/181686-masterbating-reminds-me-i-am/  
    
 This is Now! - 18 January 2015    
http://deepundergroundpoetry.com/poems/191931-this-is-now/  
    
 My Dark Little World - 26 January 2015  
http://deepundergroundpoetry.com/poems/192770-my-own-little-world/  
    
 I'm Too Old - 18 March 2015    
http://deepundergroundpoetry.com/poems/198419-im-too-old/  
    
 Time Creeps Slowly In The Moment - 23 March 2015    
http://deepundergroundpoetry.com/poems/198942-time-creeps-slowly-in-the-moment/  
    
 Reflections of My Adversary - 18 June 2015    
http://deepundergroundpoetry.com/poems/207851-reflections-of-the-adversary/  
    
 Broken - 3 July 2015    
http://deepundergroundpoetry.com/poems/209345-i-am-broken/  
    
 along for the ride - 20 August 2015  
http://deepundergroundpoetry.com/poems/213883-along-for-the-ride/  
    
 Runner-Up - 1 September 2015    
http://deepundergroundpoetry.com/poems/214938-runner-up/  
    
 Quicksand - 9/5/2015  
http://deepundergroundpoetry.com/poems/215304-quicksand/  

  déjà vu - 11/22/2015
 http://deepundergroundpoetry.com/poems/222129-d-j-vu/

  Just Once - 12/312015
 http://deepundergroundpoetry.com/poems/225738-just-once/

I can relate... I've had several dreams but lacked the ambition to chase them, although indecisiveness may be my problem...
I can't stay focused on one thing long enough. I just play everything by ear now.

Thanks for commenting Kitty! Not to make excuses for myself, but I have ADHD. My doctor won't prescribe the medication (Adderall) that will solve it. He says I don't need it because I'm retired and it's not affecting my job. That may be but I'm not dead yet and there are things I'd like to accomplish. ADHD holds me back from completing many things I start. Looking back on my life I wonder which came first, laziness or adhd. Either way, if I could overcome it, my entire life would be different from this day forward. Whenever someone tells me they can't finish what they start, adhd pops into my head...
JJ

Sometimes we just gotta wallow in in our own muck a bit, hose off, and keep on going.  It's good for the soul, and all of life happens for a reason!

Very true. Thank you for commenting Madame! JJ