I Suppose

I suppose I could keep my quiet when apathy rears it's head
keep my political musing
make cookies pies and bread

I suppose I could be less offended I am chastised for my views
for in reading comments crafted
one would think I has a very short fuse

I suppose I could be mute when perceived allies engage in partisan attacks
appeal to anger in less connected voters
hunt the opposing party for every crack

I suppose I could be up on today's fashion and dress to grab the eye
ellicit compliments from others while out on the town
keep the ballcap on and be Mr.Flyguy

I suppose I could kick up the banter with game to impress the gals
certainly must have learned something politicking
rather then be suspended in the stasis of being pals

I suppose I could be more confident when a fetching lady catches the eye
since the attribute is referenced as a must in surveys
rather then a return to where an empty space lies

I suppose I could be more focused on material well being and wealth
and not be inclined to volunteer as much
for at times the mental energy exerted made me question my health

I suppose I could have stayed in law school with expertise in legal acts
following dad's advice instead of mom's
research, arguments, depositions,juries and tons of court stacks

But then I have to ask would this moment now be the same
and the past can't be the constant mode of reference
furtility in wallowing in lament and shame

Lesson on repeat may someday take root in my thoughts
that the biggest challenge is the one I impose
and that the state I am most wanting will never be an item to be bought