A SHINESHINE SO COLD.

A Women so bold she startled me,
not in a why that terrified me
but shockingly, deep in me, I saw her darkness so beautifully,
that deep in my heart I knew instantly.
that she was the one for me.

one to take the pain away
one to numb the lonley days
and one to walk with till the end of days.

and never saw what people would say
shes no good kid, shes broken, walk away.

I'd turn around with an angry scowl
say fuck you dude watch your mouth
you don't see what i see because your a fool,

collectively, in a symphony, of atomic chemistry.
the universe created a perfect piece
of human engineering.

ive seen and done almost all life has to give...
I've lived, I've loved, but mostly I've sinned
i have created, and even taken a life before
hell ive even died once before
resuscitated  i look up at faces from the hardwood floor.

So yes i was definitely startled and shock when she looked at me  
like open windows, clear as day she saw right into me
and i starred back confidently.

but probably looking foolishly,
unsure of what i was actually,
seeing for the first time here on this earth in reality
the perfect and beautiful equal.
but in my mind so much greater and  better half of me

now i sit here each day numb and so hollow
masking my pain with dope and the bottle
trying to forget what i once had .
and thinking to myself she did truly you and she will come back.

she was my sunshine and thats what they called her.
now its so dark, cold, and painful without her.
i pray to heavens and hell and whoever is listening
please i beg of you bring her back to me.
if not for a moment
a second
a blink of an eye
one last look into those beautiful eyes..