I Haved Loved

I have loved fully,
And I have loved deeply.

I have loved the way you laugh,
gasping, and light.

I have loved how you speak,
Biting, harsh, and cold.

I have loved the way you cast shadows,
empty, dark, and fleeting, like you

I have loved the way you break down,
completely, and exposing all of you

I have loved the way you repair yourself,
through smoke, a bottle, and nameless girls.

I have loved the way you break me,
through your lies, and your hands

I have loved the way I cried,
aching, screaming, and completely broken

I have loved the way you don't even acknowledge me anymore,
Instead, you chose a pretty face too detached from herself to even see you.

I have loved you so deeply,
And I have loved you so fully,

And in all honesty,
I have never stopped.