I try

i try to quit
i tell myself i got this
i say i am not addicted
but yet
i turn around use it again

i say i can quit
again
and i will for a month
i will even get clean

then i get upset
i smell it
and i use it again.

still i tell myself
i am not addicted

even when
everything points to it
i still deny it

I AM NOT ADDICTED

i say it all the time
to myself
to my family

i say i got it under control
but its not true