Limbo

 
In deadly silence I sit and ponder,
concluding that I'm socially inadequate.

Continuously juggling two anxieties:
"I want to have lasting frienships"
"I don't want to leave the house"
is exhausting.

I dissociate from the world frequently,
delving into a limbo state of nothingness.
An empty place where I feel no emotions,
where my brain kills itself for a while.

I lose track of the world,
of those around me,
friendships break,
I...break...

I can't do this anymore.