Lean Back

I'm happy in the chaos
I am cool with no control
I lean into it, lean back
 
I'm in a chain reaction
goin' on since I was born
I lean into it, lean back
 
Nothing makes sense to me these days
but in the confusion, I understand
I can either put both of my feet in  
or keep trying to walk on my hands
dead ends, dead beats and their best friends
trying to explain how the stars align
and I've got opinions on the matter
but I think I'll save them for like minds.
 
I'm happy in the chaos
I am cool with no control
I lean into it, lean back
 
I'm in a chain reaction
goin' on since I was born
I lean into it, lean back
 
If I'm not learning, I'm not living
even if I never better myself  
at least I was the kind of girl
to take the books off of the shelf
and read them till the pages tear
I laughed, I cried and some words smeared
then the last page, and the final word
I had funerals for the characters
who died when the writer put down his pen
 
I'm happy in the chaos
I am cool with no control
I lean into it, lean back
 
I'm in a chain reaction
goin' on since I was born
I lean into it, lean back
 
Are these feelings real or just the moment?
when I'm in your arms, do you know all you're holding?
a baby bird, a universe, twenty six years formed
in this space, we consolidate, mixing mine with yours
I can't explain the mess we've made, but love it all the same
it's out of my hands, out of my hands, out of my hands
 
I'm happy in the chaos
I am cool with no control
I lean into it, lean back
 
I'm in a chain reaction
goin' on since I was born
I lean into it, lean back