I Don't Want To Remember But I Remember Everything

I lie through my teeth when you look at me
"I'm cold, I'm numb, He means nothing to me"
That's what's going on in my twisted head

I am always fighting this urge to scream
I know I don't love him, he's just a memory
He isn't sweet like the guys  I tend to love

Oh the dream I had of the first night we met
I just don't want to remember the boy you used to be
Because you're not him anymore... he's dead to me

Yeah, I'll be your toy, Do what you say, I just don't care any more
Don't look in my eyes, you're just my play thing, the body of someone I used to love
The memories I'm killing them one by one, The boy I remember will be gone before I'm done

You think you're so special because I let you say the things you do
But there's a fucking line of ten or more behind you
You're not my type for me to care, I just want to fuck whenever your there...

In my mind the person I loved and the person before me aren't the same
The only things you share are his body and the knowledge of me
Yeah, I'm a liar but that's who I want to be, it's who you made me

Boys they come and they go, and a broken heart is all I remember
No, you aren't going to hurt me this time, No, Those eyes won't make me fall
I'll spread my legs but the cage to my heart, No way in hell am I letting you in

I still love the guy in my memories, there's no way that I can stop
But you're not him so please just stop this foolishness
You can fuck me if you like but you'll never hear those words from me