Ex Coke Whore

Redemption ain't no free ride but I'm so proud of you Brenda ....
xx

thank you Poet means a lot to me..

with love Brenda

Cocaine is a bitch to let go of...rarely anything left to come back to after a good ride there.  A month clean though...cling to that.  Know all about white-knuckle sobriety... It does get easier...just never too easy.

Michael

thank you for the advise..

with respect Crim

It's hard but I suppose one day at a time is the key to anything.  
You are a survivor and gaining strength from it makes you a very brave person Brenda.
This is a beautiful heartfelt write, baring all.

thank you so much Rina with love Brenda

Doll, have a little over a year and a half clean. Finally finding Jennifer. You will lose the feeling eventually. If this is a look back at feelings, you already know this!

Love n hugs n hugs for this.

💜💙
Jen

thank you lovely Jennifer for sharing your own experience with me..

big hugs back with love Brenda

thank you beautiful one it has been your love and support that has helped so much I will forever be grateful..

love you lovely one Brenda

This was a revealing truth about your drug of choice
wonderful wright

thank you kindly with love Brenda

Well I'll tell you Crim, coke is a two face prick !
You're better off without him !!!
Glad ur around I sure do miss you when you're gone!!!
Great spill sis!
Loves you
Zazzles xoxoxoxox

a grand prick indeed thank you beautiful :)

with love Crim

Congratulations on the month Crim!   The catching up is hard to do after a year.  I KNOW you can do it.  Your work has been marvelous.  Meth made me its bitch for multiple years, and I was a zombie when I finally ran out of money and kicked accordingly.  I love the last lines here:  "Feeling bereft without my drug cloak / which in the end was a strait jacket."  I'm glad you've cut loose from the coke.  Hang in there baby!  

thank you Sir Crow for sharing your personal experience and for the encouragement :)

with love Crim

Keep writing...

I don't know whether or not you find it helps,
but what the hell, you're good at it..:)

thank you Paul I will writing definitely helps :)

with love Crim

Wow a whole month!? That's very good my dear! Keep up on the right track n before you know it, it won't have any power over you... :)

I feel it's power already loosening it's grip over me thank you Poe :)

with love Crim

Lovely soul, no one is perfect. We all want to take life by the horns and ride it hard. You have learned and grew beautifully from it. Hold your high! Your ink is always dipped in wisdom. Hugs n love to you, blue angel

thank you beautiful Angel for such lovely encouragement :)

with love Crim

anatomy of a trip. a devastating tale told in white line poetry, Crim...

thank you John a trip it has been..

with love Crim :)

fucking love it...it's been 4 months out of my straight jacket...keep it strong my friend;)

thank you Jasper and congratulations on your four months clean :)

with love Crim

The plain hard truth ring's out of your words as if air raid sirens are going all around me.

Love the write

Brenda, heartfelt the words of pain.. this piece is brash reality.. and you paint as a person, who's survived 12 rounds of throw down.. you're a survivor.. and that in it's self is a victory.. but anyone who's been an addict, now's the fight is never-ending.. and daily.. congrats on being free from this vice, for a month.. and keep fighting.. you have friends in your corner.. you never fight alone.. with love..


Dave

thank you Dave for such uplifting comments :)

with love Brenda

last line is really a masterful stroke - the enticement of drugs - you rarely really realise what your getting into :-)

thank you David for such a great comment and truth..

with love Crim

"cocaine is a mind fuck"  ...simple gd truth darling..

"feeling bereft without my drug cloak"      
 &    
"which really in the end was a straight jacket"
~you give perfect comparison here & cudnt shine any brighter than this Brenda of brave heart.
apologies on my tardy reply[muckies of my own], but you Never leave my thoughts Ever!
loves & strength.. *reminding you that your truest ones stand guard always. great release CrimCrim!
~d

lovely d~ I so cherish your visits thank you for leaving me such great comments and love on this write..

no need for apologies beautiful I hope the muckies pass soon for you and you're on to brighter days :)

love Brenda

Woah, powerful ending.

I know how this feels. Not with coke, but with other addictions.

Thanks for sharing.

thank you lovely Harlie for relating to this write..

with love Crim

Stopping is not easy. Staying sober even harder. I wish you luck and much strength Crim.

thank you Xmar for the words of wisdom..

with love Crim

PS: I ''did'' coke just once in Vietnam, not even knowing what it was, as it was just given to me, so do like the others. However, I was working in a sort of MASH unit.  That morning a General was coming by for inspection in my small section, accompanied by my captain.  He looked at me, I knew by his look that he knew I had taken some.............luckily for me, he said nothing, just moved on. Glad you are out of it. Regards, Robert.