blonde is the new black

I know everything he doesn't want me to.  
I know everything he said to her....
and I will never tell him how much I cried!  
Do or die, sink or swim, he wins
 
22 is just a number.  
It is worthless and doesn't mean a thing.  
I will not count down the days.
 I will not mark it on the calendar.  
I will not acknowledge its significance whatsoever.  
It's cheap and no longer belongs to me.  
 
But it has kept my heart beating for five years. Maybe it will be the reason it stops. _  
give or take, always the same, he wins