Feelings Die

If feelings died, then they died
They just can't be revived
And yes it kills me inside
But at least I know why
Circumstances took their toll
No fault of mine I know
I just hate that I had hope
While you didn't know how to cope
And I wish you would have chose to communicate
Instead of just leaving me to speculate
I'm never going to see it as fair
But you didn't want me to be there
Because it was too hard for you to trust
After all the damage that had been done to us
I know you thought you wanted to try
And that you didn't mean to lie
But it doesn't change the fact that
My heart is hurting from your actions
I know that we can't have it back but
I wish I'd got some real chances
To prove that my feelings were true
How could you think I wouldn't do what I needed to?
To show you that the place I had for you was safe
But I wasn't the risk you saw worth to take
And I gave you many glimpses into me
Sometimes I think you chose not to see
You knew where you could revisit but never sought
As a result this is what I got
Hit over the head with clubs of assumption
All about conclusions no two-sided discussion
Opinions of mine and thoughts of no matter
It's what was required in order to let this thing shatter
Subconscious behaviour to kill your desire
Just in case I could relight the fire
Confusion abound with no way out of dark
Intentions were good but you still broke my heart
In some ways anything I'd have done would have made no difference
Not if you made yourself lose interest
I fought a losing battle alone it would seem
Goodbye to what was, smash the dream
You did what you felt was right and I can't blame you for it
All of this pain though, I wish I could ignore it
Because it really sucks some nights to be sad
Wondering what could have been and what we could have had
Still I sincerely hope you find happier days
And I hope I do too as I adjust to the change
Feelings live, and then I guess they die
They can only survive if both people fight to try