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For Shame (For Hope)

I never asked for this
I never wanted to become a monster
I never got through to you
I never asked for what I'm served.

The person that I am doesn't like this world
The person that I am doesn't like what it sees
But more than anything, more than everything
The person that I am doesn't like me.

I hold on to this, though, this neutral moment,
I am neither happy nor sad today
I am hopeful as I hold this cure,
And I drown in my hopeful shame.

A moment in silence is all it took
To remember everything, good and bad
It's all worthy of the tears,
Whether it's how I got here or what I once had

It all slipped away so fast, the life that once was,
The energy and power of being where you want to be,
But nothing hurt so bad as the fall to where I am now,
And this hell I'm in has become part of me.

Since you read this can I pray,
That you'll be here when I go?
That I have a place to stay,
That somebody will know?

I'm holding on to this moment,
As only I can ever hold,
But if you really want to know,
I grasp my shameful hope

In my left hand
The only cure
For broken hearts
And hurtful words
Don't let me go
It's not okay
I never was
Much less today

I hold on to this moment,
And just go along
Call me a coward
Tell me I'm wrong
But to broken eyes
Of broken souls
I'm holding on
To shameful hope
Written by Angel_Of_Darkness (Rune L)
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