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Mantrums

Had to cut a friendship back. Was ready to axe the thread entirely, but I'm entirely too accepting. Called them out recently, on the behavior. Talked for over an hour. All they got out of it was "So, wherever our paths cross again, we'll still be friends even if we don't talk much then." Which at first felt like acceptance.

Until I realized it was acceptance of losing a friend, of being back listed, of remaining the toxic, socially venemous asshole that so far every real woman and together man can't stand to be around. It's an acceptance of being a counter-agent to any value my kind brings to the world.

I tell folks all the time, "Do you." But I always make sure I'm talking to grown ups first.

This text was to a 26 year old, unemployed little boy living in his daddy's house, preparing to go to school and not work for years until daddy gets him a job. This is just now, unedited. I thought I got over my anger after last week's call out. I was wrong.


Overstanding within, to stand amongst men
You've got to first handle your ends
Entitled princess frenemies again
Tripped up with every statement of stay in your place-ism
Riddled with White Male Privilege cause they're little bits
And couldn't handle facing what's within
Vibe-killing, empathy-unwilling, spoiled fucking children
I'll have time for you when you finally make a grown up decision
To what you're presenting and envisioning
Instead of resenting how I'm living
Can't relate or fit in, but envious and smitten?
Homosocial confusion-drugged in
Social insecure excuse for a curmudgeon
Plugged in from hero worship tugging
My kind sees right fucking through
I'll have time for you when you've done something
Other than swing from bugging on me to nuthugging
I don't need my ass kissed, I'm perpetual to my task list
Always on the grind, only following the paradigm of my own kind
Just because you saw something in me you wish you could be
Doesn't change how far you foul up all of humanity!

Commonalities don't make us common
I never saw a powerful woman as a target to stomp on
Think they don't catch the uppity step
When you alpha interject?
Why do you think none have ever been interested in you yet?
It's not a hazy rule. You're broken
So only crazy girls or weaklings will be open
Intellectual, outspoken, mature?
Baits your tantrums like rich brownskins to Americans!
Just check what you scope on always unsure
Never catching up, so your fits?
Are a refit of control
You switched the picture on our roles
Put yourself high up, kill the individual
Where I'm from getting visual is habitual
Where you're not advantaged your body language
Betrays your lack of respect and understanding
So all of these rhyming reminders are
Because you need to grow far
To be able to stand up and fit!

College is a biiiiig change. Please don't be insulted, just prepare yourself cause most people think like me, and will react the same way.
Written by LokiOfLiterati
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