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Lost Little Girl

I'm the kid who weeps and wallows
The one who leads but mostly follows
What is it about me that I don't know
Not sure in which direction I should go
Beat up and tormented by my brain
Feeling like I'm going insane
To no one I could explain the way I felt
Self-mutilating to cope with the cards I was dealt
I then found drugs as my new escape
But how much more would I let them take
Living in an abandoned house in the snow
Simply because I had nowhere to go
Tried to end the pain and kill myself after a while
Just so sick and tired of heroin's fucked up lifestyle
Isolation and sadness are all I know
I feel I have no one to whom I may go
So I sit alone to write this letter
In hopes of my thoughts becoming better
But more and more my thoughts consume me
So just shut the door and let me be
As I sit for a while and think for a bit
I suddenly feel the need for a hit
But if I do I'll be off to the races
Hearing so many voices but to them no faces
I wanna be "normal" but I don't know how
So all I can do is just sit and stare now
I seem to put myself through so much hell
Being afraid to break free from my shell
But it isn't really hard to see
That drugs aren't the problem it's simply me
So I have to try really hard to change
Cuz' I'm so sick of playing this game
Written by akocz (Amanda Kocz)
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