To feel okay

Why do I still think about him
Why do I still miss him
Why is it when I'm drunk all my thoughts lead back to him
Why did he leave
Why doesn't he want me
Why did we have to end things like we did
Why can't I forget
Why am I not getting better
Why can't I just speak to him
Why can't I find his number anywhere
Why can't I stop hurting it's been almost two years
Why can't I feel whole again
Why can't I move on
Why can't I let someone in, I don't want anyone else
Why can't I get better
Fuck, first loves really do hurt.