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Ruin

if this is how it feels to love you
I'm not sure I can love you for very long
I know I said that I can do this but
I don't think it turns out I'm that strong

to have you but not to have you
be out with you, not be able to grab you
the important things couples do
they don't seem to mean a thing to you

and they break me down into pieces
so I just focus on my breathing
as if it'll keep me from falling further down
do I matter to you or am I just background?

I don't know what I'm doing
I think I'm headed for ruin
and this was all I wanted
but what you get
isn't always the same thing
I don't know what you're doing
but I think you're ruining me

now when this started out, it was backwards
I was the one being careful with my words
and I'm not sure right when tables turned
but they've got me pinned up against the wall

asking myself if I'm important at all
I'm tired of crying and feeling manic
wondering where you are insights panic
and I'm starting to feel like I'm an addict

I don't know what I'm doing
I think I'm headed for ruin
and this was all I wanted
but what you get
isn't always the same thing
I don't know what you're doing
but I think you're ruining me

I already know that I have the answer
but my heart beats out like a dancer
that won't stop though her feet are bleeding
and the audience is out there screaming
that she's over tired, the performance is a mess
will she retire? it's anybody's guess
when it opened it looked like a success
that's the thing about giving it all to one basket

I don't know what I'm doing
I think I'm headed for ruin
and this was all I wanted
but what you get
isn't always the same thing
I don't know what you're doing
but I think you're ruining me
CaityCat
Written by CaityCat (Peaches O-Brien)
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