easy kind of girl

I have sliced  up my skin for you.....
I miss you so much....
I thought our love was true
tears I cant even touch....
I loved you for you...
I wanted you to be mine....
IM CRYING as I write this letter to you...
how miserable do I have to be just for you to be happy....?!
you hurt me in ways I cant even imagine....... your stuck
in my head....
I don't know where to even begin..
what am I even writing...? you don't care!!!!!
I love you so much I cant even bear!
your pink beautiful hair....
do you remember the night we went to the rose festival...
when you were so scared to go on the Farris wheel
I held you tight I kissed you..... you were my everything...
its so hard being your friend.... its so hard to not be so close to you......
its so damn hard that I cant even kiss you... hug you!
HOLD YOU!
I cant call you mine....
ive come undone....
I cant sleep I cant eat.... I cant stop thinking about you....... you may not give a shit...........
about our past..... I must have you.... you may care about our past..... I don't know...
give me a chance.... one last chance..... im broken with out you!!!!!
how many bullets do I have to put in my head to get your attention...
how many cuts do I have to slice for you to look......
how many tears have to be shed in order for you to hold me...... hold me.... please hold me... please kiss me...... please.... please.. don't give up on us.....
I am Jacob Juarez this is my story please share on facebook..... I need help getting this to her..... thank you...