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Maybe


At times I catch myself thinking why am I here. I think and I think still the answers unclear. Going through the motions day after day. Maybe what I need is to just get away.
Not for long maybe just for a while.
Figure out who I am maybe find a new style. The thing of it is im not sure what's wrong. I just know I dont feel I am where I belong. I've spent months upon months. My emotions all mixed. Then I settled so I can pretend I am fixed.
I try to be happy and some days it works out. Then the next I wanna punch a motherfucker in the mouth. On second thought I think I just figured it out. It's these fucking people..
No ones like me. I need people around and yet to be free. I am kind and honest and loyal to the bone. Yet people tend to leave me on my own .. To deal with my emotions and trust me its merited. Things happened to make me feel what no one else did.
Im trying to be strong and move on with my life as if nothing happened.. That my future is bright. Spending every day not knowing who I am anymore. And occasionally maybe pondering to settle the score.
But that's not who I am and on that I won't bend. So instead I decided to make him my friend. I'll be honest and loyal maybe sensitive and true. In doing so maybe he'll help me get through. For now maybe I'll decide not to go any place. Maybe stay right here and leave my happiness to fate
Written by nickiMirage
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