My Shame

Those screams echoed the ones in my head
She just had more courage than I ever did
While she immediately fought, I wished for Death
If I had done the same, could it have turned out different?
Circles, running in the same old thoughts
Still haven't found the answers I have sought
Too many what if's, not enough change
I think of 8 years ago
Some things are the same
I just want to take it back, redo everything
Apologize to all for what I've done
Find some way to carry on
But attempting to right my wrongs
Is living a life I didn't want
I should have a little more self-respect
And quit carrying around all this guilt and regret
I'm not sure if I even can
But welcome all into my shame