Self-Contempt

When most people look in the mirror
They see something that matters to them
Something that is worth fighting for
Something that is worth it all
For they see themselves
And they love who they are forever

But when I have in the reflection
I see myself as everyone does
But I see myself much differently than they
I see something meaningless

I have never loved myself only loathed it
I respect myself to the entire extent of total nothingness
Sometimes when I see myself
I even get the urge to kill myself again and again
For I am a mistake and a fuck up to this world

I matter not to myself for I am nothing
How some value me at all must be a product of delusion
I should already be rotting in the grave
Being forgotten about already and dead and gone
My memory gone and my body dust

When I see myself I want to die
A mistake I have always been
Why I was born I’ll never know
But all I’m sure of is that my parents made a mistake

Self-contempt is all I’ll ever feel toward myself
Some may love themselves forever
But I’ll always see myself as a piece of filth
That needs to be dead and never born
I am no brother of worth to anyone
I am nothing at all

Owned by Dustin Smith: Bastardofbodom666