Gloomy Thoughts

Wouldn't it be swell to be robotic?
My god, I know life would be less chaotic.
I wish I could delete these wretched emotions.
They crash in my mind like waves in oceans.
Staying up at night thinking about her is starting to feel pointless.
I bet she cares less about me, soon I'll be worthless.
Is there even a cure for sadness?
Oh wait, she was my cure but I guess that medication expired.
So many hopes, lost. Why?
Oh yea because time management isn't her forte.
One moment I'm over her the next I want her by my side more than anything.
Funny how I used to think that having her in my mind all day was a blessing.
Should I keep on attempting to get her back?
I'm know I'm trying my best!
It's hell not being with her,
But I guess it's time to give this "trying" thing a rest.
I hate having tears run down my face.
I dream about her being with me, but sadly that's not the case.
Fuck it! I tried. I gave up things that are special to me, for her happiness
And she can't take a little time off her schedule to make me happy?
Fuck emotions, and fuck her....
I wish I meant that but I still love her.
....Why can't I just be a robot...?