Let me die, to Live again.

So I sit here begging for death to lightly kiss my unfaithful lips
and take my sinning soul to emptiness so no longer do I hurt
Let my tear of blood never be shed but once
Let life see my hollow eyes never again
Let suicide sing with the color of red
Let me fall to nothingness and die
See me as nothing as do I
Kill me with all
For do I know
Do I?
Who am I?
But a corpse
to the life
I no longer live
Let me fall to the nothingness and die
Let the lips of red kiss my lips of blue
So lifeless am I
My eyes forever hollow
Forever empty
Forever cold
Let me fall to the nothingness and die...
'His warm hand upon my cheek
He is so full of life
My ever forgotten
Never to be seen again
His tear upon my shell
The thing that led me through as strong as it could
Yet still fragile
For the pale porcelain it is
The color of blue
The color of the tear resting on my forgotten heart
No longer do I live
Let me fall to nothingness and die
With a smile of a mask created by all but me.
Walking each day and letting people see what they want,
but the true tear shed within.
Only the color or the bright rose
No longer the color of the heavens.
The celestial blue of a tear
is taken by red
The only visible pain
Yet still no one sees.
No one looks into my eyes, far to afraid of what they might see.
Death.
Sorrow.
Pain.
Suicide.
Let me fall to the nothingness and die..
To afraid
All they want to see
is
For I let them create a mask
Letting them see love
The color of luscious pink
Yet white the only color I see
Empty.
Unsatisfying.
Painful loneliness.
The silence of death
The one sound that greets me each and every day
Let me fall to nothingness and die..
Blame.
All the blame
Thrashed upon
My bleeding hands
My plea
My truth is not enough.
Only seen as a lie.
All my words seen as a lie.
That is true.
Yet only because I let people see what they want to see
Let the blame be pushed against my weeping mind.
My sorrow filled wounds.
My wounds of pain yet still are numb.
So let it kiss deeper,
Let me dance with death
As at the ball of stars and clouds
Let me fall to nothingness and die..
No thanks uttered to me
They look upon me
and quickly look away.
For my hard work, nothing.
To no one am I real.
No one sees the worth of thanking my broken soul
As I lie there
Bleeding I see
Life as nothing but what it was
Fake,
A lie,
Something that you create the way as seen before.
So let me die,
to Live again.
As someone new
Someone not broken
Someone able to hear the thanks needed.
Let the color
White, the color of nothing
Disappear from my mind.
So lost,
let me fall to nothingness and die..
Pushed aside,
Ugly,
The pain of starvation
Lingering upon my mind
Let the light of beauty
Become me
Let me no longer be pushed aside,
but to be kissed.
Let that kiss be sweet,
so the pain of the ugly white can be forgotten
By all,
By me.
Let the life that I once lived,
be forgotten.
Let me relive the death of before.
Let me fall to nothingness and die.
Let the deaths wish be remembered,
but let me die,
Only to be forgotten by all.
No ones eyes see my disappearance.
Let me not be remembered as not needed to.
For I seem to be forgotten so easily.
The pain of life gone from my mind
yet most felt of sorrow and regret
No one seems to feel
For to most I was nothing
But a place for their pain to be left as my own pain and tears.
Not asked if feeling a thing,
No one cares,
No one thought.
So as I say this Farwell,
Do not feel,
For no one felt my pain.