Nothing but death is promised

As, you lay sleeping in my bed, I wonder what does she have that I don't? NOTHING! I would never play games with your emotions, or FUCK with your head. Wasting your time with unworthy notions.

Yes, you have history, but your moments together were full of deceit, played out like a horrible mystery.

You know, technically speaking we also have a past. Our time together may be  short but at least our moments were real!  The start of a relationship built to last.

I would never open my legs and claim another lover.
Or, use my children as a tool to pull you back in and win you over.

So, I sit and worry what tomorrow will bring, will I lose you?  
Will you go back to what broke your heart once before?

Will I be kicking myself for being careless, letting myself feel for you so quickly, even I will admit I may have been a bit hasty and wreck less.

I guess I only have myself to blame if tomorrow goes badly. I saw the signs and chose to trust and ignore them sadly.

For now, I will dry my tears and snuggle into your warm embrace, I will be strong as always quiet my fears and memorize the lines of your face.

You are right after all nothing but death is promised, but I pray her hold on you is weaker than I believe because falling asleep void of your arms is not any future I would seek!