[2015] Never Gave A Rat's Ass

 
Lying soaked in my own urine
under cloudy grey and gloomy skies

Dumpster rats salivating ats
the appetizing white jelly
centers of my eyes
 
My pursuit of happiness ends here
along with all of Life's beautiful lies
 
Opportunity to give back to the Earth
What better use for me than to fertilize?
 
And I aye aye aye
r  e  a  l   i  z  e
lack of compassion
perceived I received throughout the years
was in return for what I never did give
 
This is the way I taught myself how to live
 
Staring blankly up at the nimbus above us  
where my own ugliness inside resides
 
Mirrored, the morphing shapes of my fears
Oh, how I surfed the waves of expectation
In the hopes of turning tides
 
And I aye aye aye
r  e  a  l   i  z  e  
error of my ways too late
No turning back now
as beady eyes of rats consume my gaze
 
I taught myself how to live this way
My trust was a toll everyone had to pay
Boy, those were the days!