Confession and plea to My Onigiri (Dont read if you know me please?)

Truth to my Onigiri
I wish to be honest, for your benefit and my own.
I have been stupid and wish for you to know.

Some time ago I ran a blade across my arm several times and am disgusted what what I see.

I don't wish to see them on my own anymore, I want to let you in further.

They're healing well but my emotional state is lacking strength.

You won't quite know what to say to this, you're that kind of guy. However I need to honest with you for I Love you.

Can you still love me knowing that I am marked by my own doing? It's my current biggest fear concerning Dason.

Answer me clearly, can you still love me knowing this - I don't want to hide from you anymore, goodbye to the long sleeves in the heat.

I know your not stupid, all the times I said that you couldn't touch my arm as I had 'layed funny' - I'm sure you knew better.

I didn't lie to you, as such, I sadly just left out the details I guess.

Answer me honestly, thus ends my confession and plea.