The beginning of my end.

 

    Living in a place where the sunshine is limited by the amount of despair.
No care in the air.
Type of place where I was brought up, but never caught up,
Caught up in all the hatred and the severity of the pain the world brought.
Don't need charity.
Just clarity , love ,and attention to the detail of my heart when I put you above,
I feel nothing but love.


    So far I'm so far away that I can't truly tell you what I want to say.
Don't want to get shot down as you let those verbal bullets spray.
Or hit me with the one hitter quitter,
You'll have me carried out on a litter.
With out my sunshine there's no reason to grind.
The last thing I want is for you to leave me behind.
Stuck in this world alone,
The strength of that bind.
Hard to live in a world with out my sunshine.
When its just me and you its our time.
I hope for a life time.
I want the time of my life to be with you,
Every minute of the day,
So much to say,
Day to day,
Everyday.
Its everyday you're on my mind.
Even in the dark you hold a place in my heart filled with light and joy.
My sunshine.

  You light up the darkness.
Lets build these indestructible bridges so they never burn.
I live to earn you're admiration through any situation.
No matter what you will be number one,
second to none,
We can be together and have so much fun.
If I could we'd be together,
Forever.
In my love struck head no scenario is better.
So best believe every breath I take is to make my irrational dream into something we can both believe.
I strive to be alive so I can earn the chance to have you in my life so the dream is a reality that will last forever.
"When you know you know",
so I don't want to go.

  I wouldn't forgive myself for quitting on the possibility of getting your love.
Feeling your hugs, and tasting your kisses,
Baby girl you have my highest wishes.
With out happiness why not swim in the great sea,
So many fishes but you are the one for me.

  I just wish you could see what I see in my head,
So many thoughts to be processed,
Just waiting for my brain to be dead,
Too much to think about,
I want the thoughts to scatter,
Not said to flatter,
Said to let you know how crazy you got me.

   Forgive me for giving you a small piece of my mind.
A piece of mind that comes straight from my heart shaped box.
As I wait and I can hear the ticks.
I'm about to blow up and I want to show up,
At your door step.
My heart is beating and beating like a crazy dub step.

  I'm going insane,
I need you to drive me back to the land of sanity,
You helped me find a piece of myself that was lost.

  As I write this I don't know if its a mistake but I will give it every shot I have.
Every bit of my heart is in every word used,
When you show up I'll go off in an explosion joy.
I want to be yours so all I ask is you don't break me like a cheap toy.
I'm a grown man with the heart of a naive boy.
Subjugated to the idea of how good you can be.
Baby girl don't let me down,
I spent too many days with my smile up-side down,
Lost in thought as I think about you.
Its been this way since day one,
Since day one I've seen the sun shine a lot more,
Beautiful girl don't close the door.
All I have is respect and admiration,
You have this declaration of my soul.
This feeling takes a toll.
I'm too stubborn to quit.
I'm so caught up that I'm chasing bubbles,
You're going to get me in trouble,
If it leaves me buried in a pile of rubble then I'll risk it all.
When I face the trouble I know that you'll be worth it.

  Take my heart how you want to take it just don't break it.
This feeling is undeniable,
I can't fake it,
So love it or hate it,
Take it.

 I am willing to give my all for just one shot at a good thing,
Especially knowing all the good you can bring,
I don't do this a lot but you make my soul sing.

This feeling is sharper than a razors edge.
My heart beats a hundred  fold faster when I hear you speak,
Your sweet voice gets me to my knees,
Your bright smile is the reason that I refused to accept defeat.
This is just a longer way of me saying thanks.