A Heart Betrayed

Each beat feels like a lie,
No matter how hard I try,
This feeling is unshakeable,
It's borderline miserable.

To be filled with such glee,
It's unexplainable and it betrays me.

I've longed for something this strong,
Why does my head say it's wrong?

A gleaming smile makes my blood race,
I've got to escape from this place,
It won't resolve, when I close my eyes, I see the face.

That face I've cherished for so long,
My skin ripples and my face blushes,
Anytime our skin brushes.

This is bliss and this is hell.