I am Not Okay

I wanted to try and draw today,
But I’m tired and distracted,
I cried the whole evening not why or caring,
My heart might have been heavy,
I might have just snapped,
All I know is that I cried and that I’m not okay,
I’m not okay.

Everything feels like it’s attacking me.
My parents,
My sibling,
My imagination,
Myself,
I feel so lost and confused being myself,
And in my body.

I want to sleep and disappear
Just for tonight…
I want to escape all of this.
I don’t think I can even breath and say that I’m fine.
I just want to escape everything.

I don’t even know how to talk to anyone because I feel like this…
I might need to cry more,
But I know that I won’t hurt myself.
I’m too strong for that.