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pseudo-poetic prolix ~ patchwork perception post psychotic episode    

i am
fashioned from
threadbare wings
by a blind god
who painted my aster lips
the darkest shades of fire ~
... obsidian veins
push
pulse
against the dirty snow
& the spiders scurry unseen
across ribbon & blade
burning
[sleep
in the inferno
darling]
lie
cradled in
the crooked curve
of my smirk...
he says:
you can see it
see the madness tint
the jade[d] edges
and spill in dark crescents
below my lashes
*
i painted your eyes
from clots
& licked the walls
to taste what you look like
[zyprexa]
just another hallucination
like the others
all delusions
shadowing my steps ~
... they never flee
before the light
growing bolder by day
by day by day
to stay all night
while i string them
from my prayer beads
howling the destroyer's name
[108 times over
& over &
over again]
kicking dust into my face
where
thoughts of you
cling wetly though
i recoil from memories...
could cut them
from my pale cheeks
but still find your name
scored on my skin
repeatedly
//
hope hangs on to
the blonde roots
i rip
tear
pluck
from my aching scalp
[must hurt
maim
kill something
anything]
eradicate the audacity
to dream
between the nightmares ~
... they wear you
sometimes
most nights
wear you like wolves
with teeth bared
snarling
ravenous
& i'm famished too, darling
so starved of chaos
i'd devour the apple of discord
just to taste hell on earth ...
between the padded walls
with that naked bulb
swinging
tempting
could be me, you know
could have snuffed me
with the flick of a switch
*
can't stop
the crawling bumps
rolling across nowhere
swatting at nothing
with that
dazed
glazed
gaze at fuckall ~
... except them
& accept their presence
grudingly
fleetingly
letting them stay
[i know you
know
they know]
outstaying their welcome
on
my scratch-post-neck
clawed to shit
trying to cleave fire
from my throat...
it's not there though
not really
nothing's real
really
//
_shadoe_
Written by _shadoe_ (katyusha)
Published
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