Virginity Lost Because?

Grew up
Being told to wait
For that special love; stud.
God had written it in our fate.
Wait I did.
Year after year.
Pretend that I had, truth I hid.
One night in college after many beers,
Friends encouraging me spread my wings,
I jumped in and let go.
Thinking this person cared, he enters me stinging.
Acted friendly and attentive, his only thought was to thrust inside me, below.
Apparent he'd forgotten all sense I was a human being.
I ask him to stop.
He replies that I am only scared.
You will love me playing with your crotch.
I was too impaired for my temper to flare.
Groping, twisting and more; my body he annexed.
Nipple play,
He loved to use his mouth.
Touched my ass, inspiring me to kick his way.
Reaching for my clothes
His legs closed around me.
Pushed down
On the bed
His penis to my cevix crown.
I let out an animal growl.
My mind mixed with sin with pleasure.
Somehow a basic body rhythm was established, screaming and howling.
Never feeling this or such a measure.
Remorse and shame?
Or, source of every burning flame?
Feelings every where,
Quite an affair!
After all I was twenty-one.
Time had passed for most girls this done.
Curiosity,
Pressure,
Regrets upon lumosity.
A breath of air fresh,
Perspective,
Class,
After reflection and time, I become more selective.
Never define people, or find yourself part of the masses.
Girlfriends if you have waited?
Have convictions?
Forget the debating. It is over-rated.
Remain with restrictions, YOU will be elated, no fiction!