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Phobophobia
The syndrome never ends
Dining on his own tail
Feeding his own fear
Which grows exponentially with every bite
It rarely recedes
Typical measures may well be
Hyperactivity:
The headless chicken pathology
Immersion in both work and play
Diversionary tactics:
Seeking escapism in every corner
The pursuit of leisure activities
Hyperawareness:
Sucking up every current event
Swelling with news knowledge
Money:
Burial in green
Finding that sense of false securities
And the joy of conspicuous consumption
Drugs:
The numbing of minds, emotions, souls
Addiction to mind altering toxins
Desperate spirituality:
Seeking divine intervention for the Super Bowl
And sex:
The fundamental Freudian drive
Indulgence in flesh so divine
The highest human ecstasy...
Could all this turn on fear?
And the mirror of fear
To pause and reflect would be death
Then best keep moving, I suppose
And turn out the lights while your at it.
Dining on his own tail
Feeding his own fear
Which grows exponentially with every bite
It rarely recedes
Typical measures may well be
Hyperactivity:
The headless chicken pathology
Immersion in both work and play
Diversionary tactics:
Seeking escapism in every corner
The pursuit of leisure activities
Hyperawareness:
Sucking up every current event
Swelling with news knowledge
Money:
Burial in green
Finding that sense of false securities
And the joy of conspicuous consumption
Drugs:
The numbing of minds, emotions, souls
Addiction to mind altering toxins
Desperate spirituality:
Seeking divine intervention for the Super Bowl
And sex:
The fundamental Freudian drive
Indulgence in flesh so divine
The highest human ecstasy...
Could all this turn on fear?
And the mirror of fear
To pause and reflect would be death
Then best keep moving, I suppose
And turn out the lights while your at it.
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Re: Phobophobia
9th Feb 2015 4:52pm
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9th Feb 2015 4:57pm
Thank you, Tommie. I was afraid no one would get this. I have this constant fear of rejection...
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9th Feb 2015 5:17pm
an ouroboros are we? are you sure the stopping to reflect will mean death? aren't we dying already? from the moment we breathe our first breath at birth, we begin dying. so if you're already dying, go ahead and reflect. (but i still sleep with the lights on.)
good one, crow. very good.
good one, crow. very good.
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re: Re: Phobophobia
9th Feb 2015 5:21pm
I just don't want to die before my number's up. My fears are so powerful that if I think about them too much they completely trip me up, and the death could be psychological. A total freeze up. So I find it best to keep moving and ignore the little fuckers whenever possible. Thanks, Minerva.
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Anonymous
9th Feb 2015 5:35pm
totally get it. completely 100%. and it sucks.
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Re: Phobophobia
9th Feb 2015 5:37pm
I relate to this Crowfly, on a deep level. Thanks for writing this. You cover some big topics here and I feel what you are saying on them.
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re: Re: Phobophobia
9th Feb 2015 6:07pm
Thanks, Sammy. Maybe I should take one topic at a time, one day at a time. There are so many fears and phobias to consider...
Re: Phobophobia
9th Feb 2015 7:44pm
There are a few boxes in that list that I could tick, although I must admit to a degree of ostrich like avoidance. In some ways my defence mechanism for what you describe here Crowfly is the hubris of knowing I'm not done with the world yet.
I think this is simply one your best poems thus far, in its vulnerable revelation you allow us a glimpse into an element of your soul.
Awesome.
I think this is simply one your best poems thus far, in its vulnerable revelation you allow us a glimpse into an element of your soul.
Awesome.
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re: Re: Phobophobia
9th Feb 2015 8:11pm
Thanks so much, Frank. I respect you for your hubris, the tenacity to hang in there. I'm also an ostrich in multiple situations, like seeking proper medical help. I've developed a fear of doctors that I overextend to every practitioner. If there's a word for doctor phobia I'm not sure what it is. I'll look it up. Thanks again.
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9th Feb 2015 8:15pm
It's a privilege to know you too, Schiitaryn. You're a delight to read for your intelligence, humor and eroticism. You're one wild lady!
Re: Phobophobia
9th Feb 2015 8:23pm
escapism is what this is all about, to release your self, your fears, your fragile hold on sensibility, to fly , free and escape the demons which seek to eat the very core of your inner self. By releasing these poisons through your writing or interperetive dance or music, or whatever your medium is, is to be free..
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9th Feb 2015 8:35pm
That's very eloquently said, Scot. Once those poisons are diminished one can get on with things and enjoy life, and not live in a condition of anger, fear or dread.
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9th Feb 2015 8:40pm
Thank you, Aurora. I'm glad you enjoyed. I see you're new to the site, so welcome! I'm looking forward to reading you.
Re: Phobophobia
10th Feb 2015 4:09am
it's amazing how much we are all so much a like. I think you are bright, sexy, caring, thoughtful and a winner... rejection is deeply rooted and is tough to shake, but at least u get love and applauds here no need for fear it may not be quite enough but it's real...
loved the share and especially enjoyed the honesty...
Zazzles
Xoxox
loved the share and especially enjoyed the honesty...
Zazzles
Xoxox
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re: Re: Phobophobia
10th Feb 2015 5:30am
Thanks so much, Zazzles! That's one of the sweetest compliments I've ever had. It's a pleasure to share with you, my friend! - Crow Xoxox
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10th Feb 2015 4:20pm
I love you Crow, u are part of the equation that makes this all work!
Zazzles xox
Zazzles xox
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Re: Phobophobia
11th Feb 2015 2:57pm
Oh I loved this..Awesome Ink Crowfly..."mirror of fear" that just lingers in my brain...mirrors always make me think of sand and sand always makes me think of the hourglass...and mirror of fear represent to me a fear of not having a fulfilled life (merely my take on that)...what I get after reading this a few times is that fear is the flaws and vulnerability we see in ourselves...and rational or not some fears hard to face.
love that last line..leaves it open for interpretation...either give in or overcome it...doesnt matter still hard as hell to face and fight something that doesnt exist...so your left fighting yourself...really dig this ink got my mind going early this morning .. ok im rambling apologies:) enjoyed
love that last line..leaves it open for interpretation...either give in or overcome it...doesnt matter still hard as hell to face and fight something that doesnt exist...so your left fighting yourself...really dig this ink got my mind going early this morning .. ok im rambling apologies:) enjoyed
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re: Re: Phobophobia
I welcome your ramblings, poeticDesire. Fear is the vulnerability I see in myself, but it's also the a fear of the fears that plague me. I know I overreact to perceived threats, and I'm afraid of that overreaction. My ways of combatting that overreaction are itemized here. So "Phobophobia" is a reflection on my own thinking, how I can twist ordinary events into something grotesque. And that's the product of my own fear which I do try to control with varying amounts of success. Thanks for the interpretation. It might be just as valid as my own.
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12th Feb 2015 10:08am
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27th Feb 2015 6:59pm
Re: Phobophobia
12th Feb 2015 11:41am
you've been stirring deep, dark waters & i have [unfortunately] been missing out in my absence...
... wonderfully articulated, as always crowfly. it's a treat to be reading you again & i shall make an effort to scroll thorough your other written treasures
~k
... wonderfully articulated, as always crowfly. it's a treat to be reading you again & i shall make an effort to scroll thorough your other written treasures
~k
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re: Re: Phobophobia
27th Feb 2015 7:01pm
Re: Phobophobia
27th Feb 2015 4:02am
I think you can set aside your fear of being rejected here. You are adored.
And a frak'n great poet.
Great read. Thanks for the glimpse.
And a frak'n great poet.
Great read. Thanks for the glimpse.
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re: Re: Phobophobia
27th Feb 2015 7:04pm
Thank you, Lookie. My fear of falling and failure are diminished. That's a very sweet comment.