Kiara

Kiara  
   
i woke up too drunk to fake sick  
couldn't have stayed home anyway    
test today    
like I studied    
 
so here i sit    
watching the deconstruction of minds  
pretending to give a shit    
cool kids snarl at me    
confirming my non existence    
   
geek    
   
four eyed freak  
   
I ask a question I know there's no answer for    
just so I can justify getting high during recess    
better my 420 than dad's .44 blowing my mind    
   
there's been enough blood on the playgrounds  
   
Next day ...    
   
she tells me she's pregnant    
says I'm her favorite    
the only one who seems to care  
everyone likes my jokes    
she doesn't want to go home  
   
neither do I  
   
so we grade papers and talk    
tell her my mom was a teenage mother  
strongest woman I know    
   
more stories  
she laughs  
she cries    
   
asks me my name    
my real name    
   
why  
   
If it's a boy    
his middle name will be mine    
   
I walk her out    
Thank her    
   
Yesterday?    
   
That was then, today I was a teacher again