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Recollection Reflection

I want to be reminded of better places
Happiness and confidence, smiles on faces
So I'm going to pick up the traces
And find glimpses of my conveyances
Maybe then I'll feel a little stronger
Because lately days just keep getting longer
Halted still with little progress
Stuck in a crazy complex mess
But I will bring myself out of it one moment at a time
Do what I have to in order to reclaim my mind
There is just no need to wait
To fall into a better state
So I'm heading down to my treasury
And I will recall things from memory
If I can shine a fraction of what they reflect
It just might help me reconnect

I'll try to figure out what I'm feeling
So much work, so little dealing
Other things took hold by no fault of my own
A part of me on ice, forced to stay in the cold
Temporarily glued myself together in one big solid piece
I can't set it free in spite of how much I crave release
But I've got to find a way to break this lump of fear and confusion I've become
It's time for me to truly acknowledge all that has been done
Maybe I'll try to balance the good out with the bad
Because it's just as much about being happy as it is about being sad
And I can't remain trapped under negative emotion
Or I'll forget the positives that do deserve my focus
And I won't know how to take on any more bad that could arise
I've got to ensure to prepare so that I can survive
If I don't use this time to take small steps
Then I won't work through all that I haven't yet
And I know deep inside I can't help myself like that
I've got to try to move forward because there's no going back

And I can fight it as much as I want to but it doesn't change events
Just like I could put it off because I wasn't at my best
Everyone has those moments when strength fades and they're weak
But I'm so tired of being here just existing fast asleep
In most areas it's fact that I can often multitask
But with intense things on my plate I'm no good at doing laps
No I won't rush myself to recuperate
But a walk in the right direction is the path I'd like to take
So first I'm gonna start with some good old recollection
To help me reach a much needed point of reflection
Written by WoundedHeart
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