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MUM
Looking inside
The box
I see
A grey haired
old woman
Looking back
at me
Looking serene, appearing demure
A look that hides the truth for sure
No more spirits, no more demons
No more shouting, no more screamings
Your peace, at last, finally assured
Your mental illness finally cured
I searched though all the madness
through pain, fear and sadness
of how you languished in your brain
just pretending to be insane
Insanity you chose as a means of escape
But memories still rape my mind
Off how you responded like someone blind
You knew of all the things he did
But no attempt, not even a bid
To try and save or rescue me
From all of this indecency
You are just as much to blame
Your pathetic excuses simply lame
And despite my pleading and prayers to above
You refused to show a mothers love
I’m glad and content now your dead
Another box ticked inside my head
Its only a shame it didn’t come sooner
Looking inside
The box
I see
MUM
I hear nothing
I feel nothing
Just numb
The box
I see
A grey haired
old woman
Looking back
at me
Looking serene, appearing demure
A look that hides the truth for sure
No more spirits, no more demons
No more shouting, no more screamings
Your peace, at last, finally assured
Your mental illness finally cured
I searched though all the madness
through pain, fear and sadness
of how you languished in your brain
just pretending to be insane
Insanity you chose as a means of escape
But memories still rape my mind
Off how you responded like someone blind
You knew of all the things he did
But no attempt, not even a bid
To try and save or rescue me
From all of this indecency
You are just as much to blame
Your pathetic excuses simply lame
And despite my pleading and prayers to above
You refused to show a mothers love
I’m glad and content now your dead
Another box ticked inside my head
Its only a shame it didn’t come sooner
Looking inside
The box
I see
MUM
I hear nothing
I feel nothing
Just numb
Published 23rd Jan 2015
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23rd Jan 2015 9:04pm
turning a blind eye is almost worse I feel for you David glad you have some peace now that their dead.. with love Crim
24th Jan 2015 1:22am
thanks for your comments :-)
strange how a persons death can bring peace to others :-)
strange how a persons death can bring peace to others :-)
23rd Jan 2015 9:05pm
Oh David, these (Mum and Dad poems) are terribly painful. I read Dad first and was totally expecting Mum to be just like. The austere dimensions of abusive parents. I do hope this was fiction.
24th Jan 2015 1:21am
both poems are very personal - afraid they weren't fiction - in truth it was much worse :-)
But then I'm still here, still standing, still fighting back :-)
But then I'm still here, still standing, still fighting back :-)
Well I have a lot of similar thoughts to my comments on "Dad" re forgiveness and not invalidating yourself, so I won't reiterate. But depressingly it sounds like she wasn't a whole lot better which again I'm very sorry to hear. It always astounds me how some Mothers can stand by in such denial and watch this happen to their children... I mean I get it to a point, I really do. Love, fear, insecurity, not knowing what to do or how. But when unconscionable things happen to your child I just find it tough to comprehend how one wouldn't sacrifice whatever it took to get them out of a terrible situation like that. One thing to allow it to happen to yourself, but to someone else? Especially when it's your kid who you're meant to love with everything inside you. God. It's so horrific and crazy. It's no wonder why you feel nothing. How could you? And more importantly, why would you?
But, like the other, I'm glad you found peace in the end.
But, like the other, I'm glad you found peace in the end.
24th Jan 2015 3:30pm
my parents were model parents. I learned as an adult to do the total opposite of what they did and it seems I was right to do so :-)
thank you for your kind comments and understanding :-)
thank you for your kind comments and understanding :-)
Anonymous
24th Jan 2015 8:13pm
Again...totally relate to the blind eye that was your mother. Such sadness. Much love to u my sweet friend.
24th Jan 2015 10:07pm
