In the Mix

I lie awake at night
Begging will you
Take away my plight?
Forgive me today for tomorrow
And yesterday.
It's just, I freak
When you're in my face
Breathing my disease.
I hate this taste.
Truth hurts baby,
So get used to it
Cuz I'm coming in.

Slowly, backwards
I begin to fall.
I hate you
Not at all.
I despise the things
you do to me;
Tore away my wings.
I didn't ask for this.
Why can't I leave?

Caged by my
one affection,
Cornered by my
own obsession.
Let me live
one more time;
let me breathe
In the rain.

I ask: do I scare you?
I scare myself sometimes.
When I open my eyes
I see my own demise.
Is this the end
Of you and I?
Or was it all
A horrible dream?

I mean, I realize
It's not fair,
but I love you
When you're not there.
So please don't hate me,
Because then
The voices win.

I hate you now,
But I loved you then.