~~  Into the abyss  ~~

Oblivion welcomes me        
       
With its infinite eternity...      
       
Ultimately lost, and        
 seemingly meaningless        
 I waste away in atrophy        
 Wallowing in its synergy    
      b r o k e n        
 Cowering as fate laughs at me        
       
As I enter the ever expanding abyss        
 Emptiness grants my last pleading wish        
 My worthless love touches no one        
 through the ashes of my        
 depleted heart I tediously sift        
         
Many battles fought and lost        
 In a picture of imperfection        
 I'm tired of fighting pointlessly        
 With no course of direction        
       
 Who am I fighting for ??    
       
My soul raped, defiled and left hurting        
 Thoughts of her still linger        
 She never deserved my burden        
 even with my love wrapped tightly        
 around her flaws        
 I could never keep her        
         
The beast never sleeps        
 So I drink it in...    
   
The eyes in this blades reflection        
 I can't seem to recognize    
 blood washes over        
 the lies of life's disguise      
      weary and weak    
 realizing that our future        
 has always been bleak        
         
Surrounded by diluted companionship        
 I feel alone...        
 I pour out my heart as they pretend to care       
 Those who DO care don't understand        
 and Those that understand are rarely ever there    
       
Enticing, the idea... to rid these demons  
 and feelings, from this filth which is my  
 reality, and simply slip into that         
    inviting nothingness      
   
     But...    I decide to resist....    
        For the love of my child         
           I bury these thoughts in the ground    
   
 However,  I'll never lose that piece of mind        
       
       knowing that        
       
 Oblivion can always be easily found...        
       
       
                             -M