Pretty Hurts

[Quicknote]: this is about a personal experience I went through at a young age and I like to say each size can be beautiful in its own way, don't worry about being perfect or looking perfect because it's all B.S that people try to make us believe that smaller is better or if you're a size 2 you'd be happy. Love yourself because true beauty isn't just on the outside. Sincerely, MsRockyJackson.
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I'm not cute or built to fit a fashion model's size.
I've known this all of my life.
I'd remember looking in the mirror and not liking my thighs as they were big and not thin like the pretty women's in the magazines.
Growing pains, I've had many as I'd look at a pretty lady
and then look at me and see she was more prettier than me.
Pretty hurts,
Pretty, pretty, pretty please don't hurt me
Pretty hurts me,
Pretty hurts,
Pretty hurts.
I dreaded my shape for it wasn't a size two, but a size eight.
Every time I ate I felt like everyone was watching me like I had no privacy whenever I was eating, could it be that they were thinking I was disgusting?.
Don't eat,
You need to be thinner,
Put that down you'll get fatter!
God, these voices in my head made me sad.
Sweat it off and work till you're aching and crying no harm in doing it right?.
It's only the price to pay when wanting to be lovely.
Pretty hurts,
Pretty, pretty, pretty please don't hurt me
Pretty hurts me,
Pretty hurts,
Pretty hurts.
I try so hard to live up to your definition of perfect, but it seems to get thrown back at my face.
Father, why did you say such hurtful things to me when I was just trying to be pretty?
Father, do you really think I'm ugly?
Mother, will I ever be lovely?.
Pretty hurts,
Pretty, pretty, pretty please don't hurt me
Pretty hurts me,
Pretty hurts,
Pretty hurts.
I've cried tears of frustration trying to earn the perfection of a beautiful body.
Banging my head on the wall,
Oh I'm feeling so dizzy like I'm about to fall,
I'm a little woozy was this caused from not eating?, no! forget it just drink some water so you won't get fatter.
I wasn't ever little miss popular who looked like miss America,
And I was never able to fit in extra small jeans for they would just suffocate me.
Pretty hurts,
Pretty, pretty, pretty please don't hurt me
Pretty hurts me,
Pretty hurts,
Pretty hurts.
Some women would bind their feet to walk on their tipy toes,
Some women would stuff their shirts,
Some women would wear braces around their necks,
Other women would sit out in the sun to be darker from their true race.
Beauty hurts, but then again who said we'd have to look pretty in the first place?.
When will this world grow out of it's shallow ways?,
Will there ever be a place where we can all be accepted no matter the size?.
Pretty hurts,
Pretty, pretty, pretty please don't hurt me
Pretty hurts me,
Pretty hurts,
Pretty hurts.
Oh the pain grew inside as I began to cry feeling the unbearable pain starting inside of me.
I just wanted to be thinner, I just wanted to be prettier,
Was this my punishment for wanting perfection?.
Just looking at my reflection made me feel inadequate.
I was young, but I was feeling the problems of what a grown woman was feeling.
Pretty hurts,
Pretty, pretty, pretty please don't hurt me
Pretty hurts me,
Pretty hurts,
Pretty hurts.