True love? or True Pain?

I sought out a love I've wish to regain.
But instead a strong betrayal an my pain remains.
Time was needed to heal these wounds.
But instead there was another person who appeals.
So as of yet I believe always an forever is a lie and it revealed.
Should I stay and continue this or should I just cope and feel.
I figured out seeing who could wait longer I see.
It goes to show real love doesn't exist.
But pain is the realist shit that will hit you an never miss.
Time is all was needed.
But fuck it I'm done I'm leaving.
Thought there was a chance.
But in reality it was a chance to see the truth.
I hope I loose all feelings.
I hope I'm emotionally dead.
I hope I go insane so I call erase all trace of love in my head.
Bang my head soflty hah.
I'm banging my head not hard enough on these windows that reflect my pain.
No.
I realized.
If I hurt alone maybe its not so bad.
Maybe if I give it time I won't be sad.
Maybe I'll fine someone new and ill be glad.
Or not its truly unknown to me.
Forever I shall be the beautiful beast.
Oh how I do feel the warmth sometimes.
But its them I see.
Enough is enough.
Time to live.