Banished

I haven't found myself dreaming of you
Since the day I left
And nothing has felt better
Than getting rid of that stress

I hate that I lived a lie
But while I've been out I've been able to see
My love meant nothing to you at all
Never cared about pain I felt within me

I used to ask myself "why do I stay?"
As I sat there missing what we once were
Until who you really are shined clear as day
Confirmed by each time we spoke afterwards

You thought you were just my annoyance
But you were my enemy disguised as love
I maintained my strength for months
Yet one week left you the weak one

Your carelessness drove me away
So of course I had to take the wheel
If a month was all it took for you to make years fade
Then I'm glad for what time did reveal

Because I almost believed you cared at the end
But life has a way of unraveling truth
Now I'm certain those words you said were pretend
Your greatest talent was providing endless proof

Suppose I should say thank you for assuring me I wasn't wrong
That's really how you make me feel right now
I profusely apologize to myself for putting up with you too long
But I'm happy I took that walk and that I sit here proud

So although this one's for you
It will be the very last
No need to front, there's nothing I hold onto
The chapter of us let go and banished to the past

Yes love cut me deep
But to heal you gotta bleed
Reflection and release
That's all I needed to complete