A doll just like me

Yes, I am broken
And yes I have died
But let me just tell you
How I tried to survive
 
My heart yearned to love,  
but it was in pain
and as the pain swelled, it tried to heal
But when I healed, there came a scar
And I remembered a love, not very far
 before my eye was not the memory
but the hurt that came after
the loss and the misery
thoughts of an unknown destiny
an undiscovered identity
 
I did not fall back, no
I stood there and spoke to my past
As if it were a thing
“Suddenly I see  
What it was I wanted to be  
It wasn't an athlete, a poet a lover  
It wasn't a lawyer, a doctor a coroner  
And it didn't come as an epiphany,  
It wasn't really sudden at all  
It started out slow, then it started to grow  
But really in all honesty  
It wasn't a big revelation at all  
Just a calling I had that seems rather small”
And to the love I once had
I proclaimed
“I want to be like you  
I want to be good  
To never tell lies  
To always be true  
And never give up, even when the world dies  
To face my own my fears  
And shed my own tears  
To be strong  
To be fearless,
and relentless
once more  
 
I want to be free  
I want not to care, what the others think of me  
To be happy with what I have  
To admit that even though I may be broken,  
I still work”
Again to the past
“These are my words and here I have spoken”
 
That was the fight, in which I had fought
But to cast me aside I should have thought
That stealing pieces of me would hold no gain
Ah, to be broken all over again
 
The both of us here
But I’m mostly whole
Just a few missing parts
Of my lingering soul
If you could be so kind
As to pick up my heart
Then I could be on my way,
Right back to the start
 
At my back is a dial
Twisted to stand straight and tall
But, it’s hard to move with missing pieces
So, maybe,  
Maybe I’ll just stop trying after all