Friendships

For the most part I usually don't feel
I Just react
Thinking about that makes me wonder If my emotions are still Intact
Because I've been backstabbed back to back
Multiple times and by my so called friends too
I guess I'm on safety mode now I mean what was I supposed to do?
It's getting kinda old really
We're In our 20s now
Who still does stuff like that It's Just silly
But I've always known maturity wasn't necessarily based on a persons age
Even still It doesn't matter because I'm In a new chapter In a new book and on a different page
I thank God I'm not prone to rage
I try my best to forgive freely and Just let It go
I Just stop associating with the person but of course I'd let them know
That's the worst when you gotta let people go
Because If that happens your practically dead to me
And 9 times out of 10 I'll forget everything you ever said to me
That may sound a bit harsh but I only do that for my own protection
It's like I said they're dead to me and only God can perform a resurrection
Kinda dramatic but that's what It would take to save some of the friendships that have been ended
And for the others that I haven't had to let go yet, those friendships are only suspended
Until me or them can figure out a way to mend It
I wish It didn't have to be this way but It Just doesn't work that way
Okay I'm think I'm done saying what I wanted to say