Russian Roulette

Deep breath in long breath out  
As I sit across from you looking back at me  
The shine of the pistol that lays between us  
Each stuttering exhale splitting the silence  
 
I slide my hand across the table and pull the gun to myself  
Take a deep breath in and raise the barrel to my temple  
Long breath out as I put my finger on the trigger and squeeze  
CLICK  
 
Heart racing sliding the gun back to the center of the table  
You grab the handle and put your finger against the trigger  
Let out a deep sigh as you close your eyes and slowly pull  
CLICK  
 
Breathing heavy you return the gun back to its original place  
Dragging my nails across the surface I grip the silver shine  
Wait, you say, point it at me now, you say, a test of my will  
SILENCE  
 
I bring the gun to myself starring at my reflection in the light  
Looking up at you raising it to aim at the middle of your brow  
Shaking as I put my finger on the trigger and turn the gun to me  
BAM  
 
Falling to the floor with blood dripping from my chest onto the floor  
Deep breath in long breath out, each one stinging as you grab my hand  
I couldn't do it, I say, I couldn't live with knowing I held your life in my hands  
You scream pulling me closer as I grasp your hand tighter, long breath out  
SILENCE