Dearest heartache (longtime no see)

Can you feel it?
Do you see it?
It's pouring..
Drenching my clothing,
Staining my aura..
I'm  drowning..
You don't know
And I can't say it..
But I love you..
More than anything..
I'm starting to break,
At the my wits end.
I don't belive in happy endings and forever afters,
But you are my ever after and joyful laughter..