Exhausted

I'am so exhausted of living...

The constant race track of life going in a circle
Making the same turns, i am burning out on the fumes
With these systematic rituals in controlled environments
Liberation is a far cry from these solid walls

My mind races with the absolute obsession
of ripping a bullet through my fucking skull
Intoxicated by the feel of cold steel on warm skin
Letting the bottle take a hit on silent lips

I yearn to derail this train from it's tracks
I would rather eat glass than be greeted by the sun
With it's false hope and undying disappointment
No better than the people walking past me

I am petrified by the idea of being alive forever
Isn't it better to burn out than to fade away?
I'm sure it was Kurt Cobain who said that

I just want to sleep.....